Retreat

I have not been writing for these past few days because a lot of my emotions are jumbled up in my head, and i don't know which one should be given priority to. Plus packing, travelling and jet-lag doesn't exactly brings out the creative side in me.

I am jet lagged and wide awake right now. Have class in three hours and i am looking forward to it. After having nothing to do for the past 40 days i want to get back into action again. Study again. Because that is what i do best. I like to keep busy so i can shut out all the thoughts in my head.

Well it's not THAT cold in Plattsburgh, and i guess the global warming shit is finally taking a toll on the earth's climate. We need to take care of our planet before it's too late. Anyways i am not complaining about the improved weather, it's just that i wish there was more snow like it always has been. :(

I have left quite a few of my heart aches in Kolkata, and i feel pretty light here. They are still debating inside me, but i can't hear them anymore. It's like i have finally learnt to ignore the things that hurt me, and mutilate my soul. This time i am more focused on what i have, and not what i have lost. Seeing friends back here was also quite nice. Although i have lost quite a lot of friends back at home, i have realized it's never too late to make new ones. And the ones i have here are pretty fun. :)

My past does keep coming back to me, and my horrid vacation still gleams bright in my memory. But what can i do? I tried to make things fine. I thought we could be friends. But we are not, never will be. So i should stop bothering myself with lousy thoughts of the past. I choose to hold onto the good memories, and not the tears, bleeding and heart aches.

My mother has not called me ever since i have come back from India. Which seems a little weird. Although she has mailed me quite an emotional e-mail, i am surprised at her nevertheless.

Deepak's audio is working and it is such a relief. I can talk to him and not spend hundreds of dollars. It's quite a nice feeling.And he is SO adorable. I miss him. A lot. He has been my best friend and lover for quite a few months now, and i know i can bank on him any moment. I wish him all the luck with his life. I know he has it in him to be successful, and i want him to prove himself in front of everyone. Everyone who thinks he doesn't have it in him. I love you. I mean it. :)

Well i need to arrange my binders now and print out my schedule. Will blog in class later on if Hoag drives me crazy. So i am up and about.

Well, Pooja. It's official. Welcome back to college. :)