I just can't stop writing. I might just buy a netbook so i can blog my heart out in Hoag's class. I contemplate suicide in his class, normally. At least the netbook will make me do something productive. Anyways, i love blogging. It is making me so calm. I mean it's a new me. Just sharing thoughts with...well...no one.
I will go back to Plattsburgh in 13 days. I am looking forward to the new semester. G.P.A HAS to be 4.0 this time. I am such a nerd. Lol. I am also looking forward to some new experiences, some butt freezing weather and of course some Tim Horton's.
Still i feel something is missing. Something that is not there. I am feeling a bit uneasy when i am thinking of going back and not seeing my room for a VERY LONG time. I am feeling as if i am finally leaving. Leaving behind all my past screw-ups and my past dilemmas. I am feeling as if i am finally done. But i still feel a bit empty. For that one person whose bed makes me fall asleep even if i have slept for, well forever. That one person who does not judge me. AT ALL. That one person, whom i have hurt so much, still wants to come into my arms. That one person who will say i am beautiful even though i know i am not. That one person who will again sit in front of his computer for hours to see me on his screen. That one person who won't be able to make a countdown anymore because i am not returning anytime soon. That one person who has promised to be with me even though i have done so much wrong.
i miss you. every moment. i promise to be a better lover.
So i will be leaving soon and Kolkata will soon disappear from my posts. But can drama disappear from my life? lol. we have to wait and watch. But there is a surprise for someone before i go :)
Enough blogging for today. Nighty Nite peeps.
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