Because of You

It's when i am miserably lonely that i get to know how much Mr.Ganguly means to me. I don't know why he loves me. I don't know why he chooses to be committed and faithful to me.

I have lied to him, done bad things to him, cheated him on various occasions. But he still forgives me, and loves me unconditionally. Why? I don't know what he sees in me that i cannot see in myself. If i were in his position i wouldn't had never forgiven myself. I have used him, and i have demanded all of his energy sometimes, but he still takes me back, caresses me with all his love.

How can i not love him back? If i see someone loving me so much how cannot i not fall for him? How can i push him away if he is holding onto me so tight?

I accept the fact that he is the one who is tolerating all my juvenile tantrums now. He is taking care of me over the internet. I don't know how he does that, but he is loving me pretty solidly even if i am thousand of miles away from him. Our first year anniversary of love-hood is pretty close. In two months rather, and i have no clue how the time passed. This past year has been so difficult for me, and it is still difficult, but i see he is still trying to shape my life. He is trying to push me towards the right direction. I know, that it is only for him that i still have some sanity left in me.

He has become my best-friend. He understands me even though i claim he doesn't. He is trying to make me what i was a few years back. Strong and steady. He has become my backbone, my sole reason of happiness. Thank you.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I mean it. I love you, however much i deny it. He is at this very moment complaining how he hates my blog. He is angry, but my one baby sentence will bring back the love in his eyes.

Those eyes, they killed me. They continue to do it even today. Your puppy face and your soft nature is what murdered me. They have brought about my downfall. In a good way. And now that i am getting ready to go to bed, if i ask him to he will sing me a lullaby. Oh, i don't know why u love me so much, but it makes me feel really good.

Makes me feel that I am somebody. I am somebody lovable. I am somebody special.

Do not stop this ever. Because without this i think i will break away. You are the glue that holds me together.

Thank you.