Alone

This was written a long time ago, a couple of years may be. It was new love, there was new pain. I was learning to express with words and this was the result. It's nothing much, like most of the stuff i write, but i think my old written gibberish has a place in my blog.

Standing there all alone,
I suddenly realized you were gone
I looked around all ways, to catch your one glimpse,
Your mischievous smile or your that classic wink.
But you were long gone and on your way
to a new world and I wasn’t there.

I am now angry at myself as I don’t understand
Was it my mistake that made you go?
Was my love not enough? Did it not show?
Did I hurt you? Did I push you away?
‘Cause now I feel like shit as you are far away.

There are tears in my eyes and my heart bleeds.
I still don’t understand what was in your eyes that I could not read?
My love could not make u stay and I hate myself for that.
Tell me, I would do anything, just to bring you back.

And this was the answer i received that night.He was never an amazing writer. But i guess my aforementioned poem is incomplete without this one. They are like the lock and key. an answer to a question. I am glad i had it saved up. So here his answer goes:

I don’t know why I walked away
I don’t know why I felt that way
My anger, attitude, ego and arrogance
Still sometimes pushes me away

I don’t know why you felt that way
Never wanted to make u feel the same
Ignored, confused and abandoned
In this world full of people.
Never wanted to make you feel alone
But I curse my heart and my instinct
And ask them one simple question
Why didn’t they stop me from moving away
Don’t I have a heart ,don’t I feel anything ??

Something is wrong with me
Why am I so disturbed?
Why do I have to make u cry
Why do I have to make u feel
That u are not loved

Well I will tell u what I feel
I fell like a lunatic and a heartless creature
But I do have feelings which I don’t show to all
As I pretend to be small

I have my heart and my arms
Always beside you
So whenever u fall
My hands will pick up
And hold u straight
And make u walk on the right way

Whenever u feel low
And u feel to cry
My hands will b there to wipe your tears
And whenever u face difficulties
My heart will b your shield
And my hands will fight
With all d blood and strength it has
To make all your problems go away

Don’t even care if my arms bleed
It will be just a sudden rush for me
But what all makes me smile
To see that u don’t even have a scratch on your feet

I can’t be your shadow
Like u think it’s always with u
Well I can be closer
Coz shadows disappear
When there is no light near
Even then my hands and heart
Will show u the way
And even if I die
My heart will make u feel safe
And my arms are always there whenever u require comfort
And u want to be hugged

I may not show what I feel
I may not care
Bt this is what i feel
And want u to feel
That I m always near

This is not a poem
This is not a song
This is not anything else
But my feelings.
And tonight
All I want to do is to hold u tight
And won’t let u goo
Coz I love u so ………….

I am not trying to prove any point here. It's just nice to have two pieces in the puzzle. For once, i knew the answer, and it was quite a nice gesture too.