All grown Up

This was never written with someone in my mind. It's just a regular outcome of an extreme abuse of caffeine. :)

I was always there right beside you,
waiting for you to look at me.
I used to run around breaking things,
so that you would notice me.
I thought I was small and you couldn’t see me
And I used to call out loud, yet you couldn’t hear me.

Growing up with two more,
I felt like I was all alone.
My voice, my touch, my existence
Was always first to be neglected.

On my bed I used to weep myself to sleep
Only to find out next day, being neglected was my destiny.
Hence, over the years I learned how to smile
Even though all I wanted was to hold you and cry.
And now that I am grown up, steady and strong
You can see me and want to hold me for long.

But now I don’t want to stay.
Where did your love go when I felt like stray?
Being with you makes me remember the child
who only knew how to cry.

My world is now different.
And in there you live in negligence.