Timbits

My love life is in a mess right now. I don't know who to blame for it, and i don't want to blame anymore. I am tired of this blame game. Just fuck it! It will never work if it is not meant to be. I believe it now. However much i try, things will not be fine. Once the damage is done, it is done forever.

Tonight i want to say some facts about my life. 7 facts. Why 7 facts? I don't know. Just like that!

1. I am a very insecure person. No sense of self-worth for myself. Sucks doesn't it? I mean if a hippie/gypsy chick is said to be better than me, then yes THAT does lead to low self value.

2. I am very ambitious. I will give up anything for my future. ANYTHING.

3. I am a very friendly person. I have always treated my friends like my family. Each one of them. I have been fucked in my ass by a lot of them when i needed them the most. That has led me to stop making friends in a jiffy.

4. I have learnt painting for 9 years, singing for 3 yrs, i have been an instrumentalist for 7 years and i was trained as a dancer for 3 years. Never completed any course, always quit. Why? My inconsistency.

5. I always thought that i could fall in and out of love pretty easily. This time it fucked me up. I couldn't fall in or out quite that easily. Changed my life. period.

6. I want to become a writer and join Politics.

7. I wish i could undo the day i lost my virginity. I wish it was not in a living room, but in a bedroom. I wish i was older.

Lets make it 8 facts. 7 is a bitchy number.

8. I am not a very confident person. I act to be confident, making me over-confident at times. :(


Me off to bed. Long day ahead.