Let's love Again

Insecurity is one thing, but hyperventilating because i "dreamt" that he will leave me is making me think i am going crazy.

Let me make one thing very clear - to myself - i am not one of those girls hungry for love. Well, i appreciate being loved, but i am not going to get crazy because i am insecure. I may not be the perfect girl on this planet, but i do have my strengths.

I believe that love does not last forever. It does not. It changes like seasons. People fall in and out of love almost every day, and it is stupid to think that heartaches last forever. It lasts alright, but fades away with time. So, being insecure will take no one, anywhere. Be ready to face the heartache. Be ready for the special someone to tear you into pieces. Do not think how painful it would be, do not think you will die without them, but think that if you were meant to be, then the pain would had not come on the first place. Do not compromise your place in love. Fight for your rights. If you are being loved, you should be loved for what you are.

Today, i kind of realized a very "gobhir" thought.Ganguly has seen the worst of me. I couldn't go any more cruel than what he has seen me do. Therefore, if he has stuck with me through that then, i should zip my hole, and stop being insecure. He will leave, if he has to leave. If i dread the moment that may have NO chance of occurring, i am losing all the moments which could have been beautiful memories.

I am giving us another shot. Not because of myself, but because of showing him that all those times he did not leave me, he made the right decision. I am worth it,if i feel myself to be.

Love is a weird phenomenon my friends. It makes you want to die. Other moments it makes you want to live. There are some exclusive moments where it teaches you to love yourself. ;)